“Merry And Bright”

This year has been really difficult for me.

I really haven’t been able to feel any better than I did last year. Only a few good things have happened to me this year. Tragically I became unemployed this August and have been looking for work ever since.

I’m applying everywhere, but it’s not enough for everyone.

It’s not.

I’m disabled: Autistic and I have a service dog.

Trying to find a job has been hell : No one wants me.

I don’t even get past the first round of interviews.

I know what you’re thinking, it’s hard finding a job. But let me tell you, it’s 99% harder as a disabled person.

Rejection from job after job- what’s the point of applying?

Yes- I do live on disability and I have a husband who makes the money in the family, but I always wish I could be more of help.

But, here we are … 2024 has been an awful year. I really have tried to leave several times from this world and yet, sadly, I’m still here.

I have not even sent any holiday cards or anything, due to my depression and next week is Christmas and to be honest, I’ll send them, they’ll just get there late, cause in all honestly, I don’t even really know who to send cards to much anymore. It’s kinda sad when that’s how many people have fucked you over and you just have what’s left.

I really don’t want to see the next 4 years and how life is going to implode in this country.

This year has sucked.