Time With Dawid (David)

I know I hadn’t talked about Dawid (David) Sierkakowiak in a while. There’s a reason. It’s not that I hadn’t been seeing him, I have been seeing more of him lately than anyone else. Dawid’s dead, first and foremost, but I don’t see him in front of me, I see him when I sleep, let me just be clear on that.

When I see him, He is VERY handsome, and I know the photo doesn’t show that well, but trust me, he is quite attractive. I know, there’s so much that I wish I could tell you about him. For one thng, he does a lot of talking, but he’s trying to distract me from any bad thoughts. He also likes to kiss me, which he does, not because he knows I’m VERY happily married, but he does that to erase the bad feelings and thoughts, believe me, he has explained why. But, recently, with my horrible meltdowns, leaving work early because of said meltdowns and throwing up, my mind has been visited by Dawid (David) a lot. He’s been worried, as he’s said my mind is going to the dark place and he’s trying to pull me out of it. I have a bad feeling about somethings, and he wants me to try to not think of said things. It’s hard when you’re dealing with dead people, trust me, I’ve dealt with them all my life, but more recently, they’ve been coming up.

I guess it’s the autism? I don’t know? But, I guess I have what my friend Sandy at the Holocaust Museum said, “An empathetic connection.” I don’t know, it’s hard to explain. When I dream, I can feel them, I feel them if they hug me, or if they kiss me, or if they touch me.

Dawid (David), is no different. I can feel everything he does to me, and I really sometimes anticipate it.

With Dawid (David), I think he’s trying to ‘save me’ from myself, whether that means kissing me or just talking with me.

He’s always happy to see me and he’s always someone that won’t leave, until “I am feeling better” or I “ am back to normal”. He wants me happy and I want to be. I know he’s doing his best and so am I.