“You Wonder Why?”
I just read this article on Autism- and it talked about that we don’t want to be changed, or fixed, we want to be understood.
I’m gonna again, put in my two cents. I am don’t care how anyone takes this, cause disrespectfully, fuck you, this autistic Jewish woman is so goddamn tired of the world and the people in it.
I had just tried to die last Monday and before you go, “Oh..Kate, there is so much for to life than dying!”
I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to work anymore. I want to do what I love, which is writing, or filmmaking, or anything that is artsy and I can be appricated. Yeah, that sounds selfish as fuck, but disrespectfully, I’m exhausted with being “cut out”- being “excluded” or “quietly fired”.
Let explain. I really don’t care, I’m exhausted.
Last year, as you probably read, I was on a mission to get a service dog, due to my failing health (news flash, it’s still failing!), and when I first inquired my day job about it, which was LAST FUCKING YEAR- AT FIRST THEY WERE ALL FOR IT. Then, when it came time in December, I thought I had one, and I began the paperwork and then, I got Olivier in January of this year. They took two fucking months to tell me- that he cannot be on the property due to and I quote, “Collections and Live Animals on Site!”
Now, let’s go through this. For context, I work at museum. I work in an office, under the museum, where there aren’t any collections and my fucking god, you wonder why so many disabled people, such as myself hate the work place, or you wonder why so many of us are unemployed or we get “fired”- for bullshit reasons. But I know the real reason: They’ve violated ADA and they don’t want you to be sued. Well, my job, is “quietly removing me” by making me work remote, so they can avoid the ADA violation lawsuit, but my husband is already getting that underway. He’s so tired (he’s “normal” by the way), and he’s so exhausted by this job not taking my accomadations seriously. I was on the property yesterday, and I inquired when I can return to work on site, and they said, and I quote, “Umm.. well, we think your job is now exclusively to remote.”
Translation: We’ve removed you because of your dog, so we don’t get sued. Well, you’re about to .
My husband filed a complaint to ADA about my day job, due to them not letting me bring my service dog in- if I have to be on the property. They give me the same goddamn excuse on why. I sent him what they said, and he said, “That’s all I need to nail them.”
For me, I’m really hoping they fire me so I can blast them. They forget who raised me: A grandfather, who would have already sued them by now.
The thing about being disabled and having a service dog, plus autism, is that you feel so powerless in this world. The world is not kind to autistic people such as myself.
To the HR’s of these jobs, who won’t help us, or “try to remove us- so you don’t have to deal with us”- FUCK YOU. No Seriously, FUCK YOU.
There are so many unemployed autistic people are not employed and you know now why this is the case.
